twofer

(1)
you were so sure i was against you,
that you did not bother to check if i was anywhere near you.
i did not speak for or against,
i only spoke.
did you hear what i said?
because i was not admonishing you or your allies;
neither was i defending your enemies.
i spoke to all, but mostly to myself.
these, our hearts, are so tortured and bruised
that you imagine these trials the only ones ever endured
yet if you would only turn your head to the side
you would see that we are tortured and bruised with you.
we are you.

(2)
faint happiness;
i despair easily.
i sweat, though it's cold.
i burn, though i'm damp because
i have been drenched in oil-
a Greek fire, i am;
unwillingly blackened and boiled,
destroying everything i touch.
i wish my aim was not so bold
for i miss my target and strike innocence.