When was the last time you humbled me? I have no immediate recollection. Should I be worried because that means you're going to humble me soon? I don't know if I should ask for it or not. Even if my request were incredibly specific I should not like to ask wrongly, or let you work its loophole(s).
Still...
Please reveal to me the sins I unknowingly commit. I haven't arrived; of course I'm doing something wrong that requires all my attention (or at least most).
I'm sorry that I sound too guarded and collected, but I don't always have the heart to weep. Besides, I always cry unexpectedly--I suppose that's true vulnerability: unplanned, unscheduled. Apparently, I'm not as vulnerable as I thought I am. Should I-?
Help me be vulnerable. The walls I build between myself and the world are shoddy anyway; they try too hard to replace you. How do you do it? How are you strong enough to hold back the flood waters, but are willing to let me fight on the front lines? The former, so that I don't die (haha); the latter, that I might not cower.
I know I already do very little, but thanks for sticking by me, anyway. And I know it'll never happen, but I'd like to strive to deserve you now that I have you...you have me? Whatever, it's a mutual belonging. You're all I've got, though I'm heartless and stubborn. Hell, you even gave me people on this side of heaven who love me. Thank you.
Love you.
The call of Christ is always a promotion. -A.W. Tozer
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